WITH THINGS I CAN'T SAY
Being a mom is hard. In fact, it's damn hard.
They days can get long and tiring. They sure can be trying and even lonely. You wonder to yourself, "Am i really cut out for this?" You may even wonder that a lot. In fact, I do.
I wanted nothing more than to be a mom. Now I have two perfect children, and some days it's the most difficult thing I've ever done.
Why didn't someone tell me just how hard it is to raise children? That you give up every ounce of your being to make sure every ounce of their being is being formed. That someday's you may just wish motherhood away, just for awhile, because you are tired and just completely overwhelmed with being mommy, mama, mom.
That every bit of insanity can somedays feel like it's thrown out the door and you are just holding on for dear life. Wondering, oh wondering, how you will make it through.
This too shall pass. Until then, I will wait and try my hardest.
Did I mention, I love these children with everything that I am? That no matter how hard things are, I will never give up on them. That I will keep trying to be the best mom I can be. Because, they deserve that. They deserve the best of me.
